Saturday, November 9, 2024

Hey, Now! What's That Sound?

I got to know Bill Morris, more often recognized as "Morris of  SELBYPIC," when I was a Police Beat reporter.  I would often see Bill in the newsroom, dressed in tennis whites and an ever-present floppy blue terry cloth hat, peddling his aerial photographs.  But the first time I had serious interaction with Bill was when a massive oil tanker went aground off of Port Tampa.  

It was a slow news day, Wednesday morning, July 26, 1972. I was making my morning check calls to various law enforcement agencies, including the control tower at Tampa International Airport and the U.S. Customs service.  My job was to cover any and all breaking stories, including disasters.  Calling from the "cop shop" at the police station, I dialed the number for the U.S. Coast Guard.  The duty officer kindly reported to me that they had an oil tanker barge aground just off the channel leading to Port Tampa.  This was the bulk port at the southwestern tip of the Interbay Peninsula in Tampa (the general cargo port was officially known as "The Port of Tampa" and was located much closer to town).  

When I heard a big barge was aground there, loaded with 268,000 gallons of highly explosive gasoline, I notified the City Desk at The Tampa Times.  The city editor was interested and wanted me to get a deadline story in, if possible.  Thinking big, I knew that the best story would be seen from the air.  

Page One -- In Time For Home-Delivery
My next call was to Morris.  "There's a large crude oil tanker aground in the channel leading to Port Tampa," I told him.  Without skipping a beat, Bill told me to meet him at the small, nearby airport on Davis Island where he kept his plane.  I had never flown with Bill, despite the many stories about him and his aerial acrobatics that circulated in newsrooms at both The Tampa Times and Tampa Tribune. 

It was a short drive to Peter O. Knight airport.  Bill had given me the number of his hangar, and it was easy to drive down the rows of planes inside corrugated steel structures. 

I can clearly remember pulling up to the hangar.  Bill had already pulled the plane, affectionately known as "Nancy," out of the hangar.  I pulled up in my car just to the side of the tarmac.  I was struck by the sight of some sort of door leaning against the wall.  Unconcerned, I greeted Bill and he ushered me into the front seat, on the left side of the plane. Bill's seat, on the right, had no door.  I said nothing as we taxied out of the hangar area and onto the north end of the north-south  runway.  Before I knew it, Bill was throttling up, ready for take-off.  Releasing the wheel brake, Nancy jumped forward, hurtling  down the runway and going airborne just as the runway ended at water of Tampa Bay. 

Because it was my first time flying in a small plane, I had no idea what to expect next.  Bill was on the radio, not only clearing his take-off with the authorities at Peter O. Knight, but he was soon speaking to military air traffic controllers in the tower at MacDill Air Force Base.  The conversation was along the lines of "I'm flying about six-feet above the waves off the end of the air force base runway," where Vietnam-era Phantom F-14s were often taking off.  Bill was a blood-brother of the Air Force guys, having served in the South Pacific during WWII.  They immediately cleared him fly under the end of the runway, since it was the most direct route to the grounded tanker.  Bill had regularly greased the wheels by sending the tower crew photos of the planes on the runway whenever he was allowed to overfly the base.  It was a special privilege, extended to Bill.  Because they respected him, completely. 

I was spellbound to be flying at that level, just above the whitecaps, looking at the tip of the AFB runway.  Before I could gather my thoughts or say anything, Bill pointed Nancy's nose skyward and started to make wide, spiraling circles to gain to gain altitude.  Up and up we went; the objects on the ground getting smaller and smaller.  In less than a minute we were high above the peninsula and looking directly down on the stricken ship. 

Once at the desired altitude, he promptly pushed the plane's throttle all the way in, cutting back to an idle.  Next, he heeled the Cessna all the way over to the right.  Reaching into the back bench seat Bill  grabbed the heavy, motor-driven, 2-1/4"-format Hasselblad camera.  Letting completely go of the plane's steering yoke, he slipped his hands into straps of the camera's machine-gun grips.

While the engine roar was replaced by an annoying, continuous "maaaaaap, maaaaaap, maaaaaap" sound, Bill was hanging out of the door, ripping off dozens of photographs. 

I did not know what the noise was, but I was anxious.  OK ... more than anxious as the plane glided silently (no engine roar) in a downward spiral.  With the deadline looming, there was precious time to be scared.  In one swift move, Bill tossed the 'Blad into the back seat, righted the plane, opened the throttle wide and headed back the way we came.   Once again, under the fighter jet flightpath and in sight of the Peter O. Knight runway, Nancy was anxious to get back to her hangar. 

Bill landed effortlessly, quickly taxiing to the hangar.  I was off to the newsroom to file my story while Bill was headed to his house where he would process the film in his darkroom.

The story of the grounded fuel tanker, complete with a spectacular aerial photograph, made it for the 11 a.m. home-delivery deadline  I could finally breathe easy.  It was only then, when I related my experience to fellow news reporters and photographers, that I found out what the bothersome noise was, coming from Nancy's dashboard.

"That's the stall-warning buzzer, Dane," they said.  There were laughs and rolling eyes.  The plane, with me and Bill in it, was simply falling slowly out of the sky -- and onto the front page of The Tampa Times. 




Saturday, August 22, 2020

Alone -- And Scared

I met Beth when I started at USF in the fall of 1965.  We were part of a close-knit college crowd that stayed together loosely over the years.  In or around 2010, I was living in Texas and got a Facebook pop-up from a "Beth Walker."  I didn't recognize her married name, but we soon realized we had been friends way back when.

 

I was traveling between Texas and Florida, trying to see the last manned space launch.  While visiting with friends in Stuart, Beth reached out to me via computer and I suggested she come down and "hang out" with us.  She did, and the rest is history.

 

You see, after traveling back and forth for a number of years, Beth and I decided to be together for the rest of our lives.  And to take care of one another forever.  I moved back here to her beautiful property here in Odessa, although I've always thought of myself as a South Tampa boy (Hyde Park and Gray Gables, and the bay side of Westshore just south of Euclid).

 

I sold my house and most of my belongings and came to live with Beth July 3, 2016.  We were our own best friends, mainly because most of my Tampa friends either still lived south of Kennedy or how moved elsewhere.  In a way, we started out isolated because this is four acres of country, fronting on Lake Hiawatha.  There are nearby neighbors, but no one I could really call a "friend."

 

Beth had been a lifelong smoker but had stopped cold turkey about 3 years ago.  Still, they had to arthroscopically remove a wedge section of the lower lobe of her right lung in December 2018.  When January rolled around this year, I beseeched Beth to schedule her annual follow-up tests.  But she procrastinated -- and then the virus hit in March.  She finally pushed on and got the tests.

 

It was about three weeks before the 4th of July weekend, on a Sunday night when she received her test results online.  They were not good.  There was something growing again in the lower right lobe -- and it hadn't been there a year ago.  That meant it was growing fairly quickly.  

 

The very next day we went to the scheduled appointment with her lung surgeon.  Getting right to the point, he said he wanted to go in and arthroscopically remove (as in the past) the entire lower lobe.  The recovery, he said, would be fairly quick since the procedure was not too invasive.  He wanted whatever was in there OUT.  And so surgery was scheduled July 6, just after the holiday.  But what had changed was hospital visitation: it was now prohibited.  We went to get her COVID-19 test the week before and then showed up at 6 a.m. on Monday.  I pulled down Beth's mask, kissed her warmly on the lips, told her I loved her and whispered encouraging words.

 

It would be the last time I saw her alive.

 

She went under the knife around noon, but things went awry quickly.  The surgeon encountered so much scar tissue stuck to the lung that he had to open her up with a foot-long incision, remove a large rib just below her breast, and start cutting away the lobe from everything that had somehow grown attached to it.

 

Unbelievably, she called me that night, exhausted.  "I'm tired," she said.  "And I'm having trouble breathing."  My reply was to say something encouraging, like "Of course, look what you've just been through."  I told her to try to get some rest and I would call the hospital early the next morning to see how she had made it through the night.

 

The next day, I called bright and early but couldn't get anyone to answer until around mid-morning.  I got ICU nursing first, I think, and they said that they would be getting her up in the recliner and having her breathe into the spirometer to improve her lung capacity.  And then I talked to Beth once more.  She said, "I'm tired and I'm scared."  It was heart-breaking that I could not be with her. Again, I pleaded with her to get some rest.

 

The nurses said I would be contacted by a nurse and a physician late that afternoon.  But as the day wore on, there was no phone call.  Living out here in the country, I decided to take the car up the long driveway to get the mail and to stop by the old, broken-down barn where we feed a small colony of feral cats.

 

As I stopped the car to feed her little family -- she did love them so -- the phone rang.  It was the surgeon.  "Beth as taken a turn for the worse," he said.  She was unconscious, they had had to intubate her and put her on the ventilator.  "Her lungs filled up with fluid," the surgeon told me.  "We could hear her gurgling from across the ICU, struggling for breath."  He went on to describe some medical conditions, but when he used the term "ARDS," my ears perked up.  I had been reading about ARDS in conjunction with COVID-19, and I knew it was not a good sign.  I stopped the surgeon and said, "If this is possibly end-of-life, I need to be there."  He was silent for a moment, thinking.  "Yes.  We can make that happen now."  He said to head for the hospital.  Before I got to the house, just a few hundred yards down the drive, the phone rang again and it was the nurse.  "Just come to the emergency room entrance and we'll bring you right up, " she said.

 

How scared Beth must have been.  So all alone.

 

I went into the house.  I had been using a couple group text messages to update Beth's closest friends on her condition, and I sent out a message that alerted them to the fact that Beth was in trouble and I was heading for the hospital.

 

I got in the car and headed straight for AdventHealth North Pinellas.  I was in downtown Tarpon Springs when my cell phone rang.  "Where are you?" said the nurse.  "I'm just five minutes away," I replied.  "Oh, OK.  Just call us from the parking lot when you get here and we'll get you right up."

 

At the hospital, a nurse just going on shift -- who wasn't aware of Beth's situation -- took me up to ICU.  She started to bring me into ICU but we were stopped.  "You can't bring him in here.  He has to talk to the surgeon first," they told us.  I was taken around to the waiting room where the surgeon arrived within a couple of minutes.  The first thing he said was, "You need to sit down."  Just like any nightmarish movie ... only it was real.

 

"Beth has expired," he said.  He went on to say they had been trying to revive her for the past two hours.  Her heart and stopped and they could not restart it.

 

I was taken in to her, they closed the curtains around us, and I took her cold hand and held it.  I talked to her and cried softly.  I stood up to kiss her on the forehead and -- she was still warm.  I touched the side of her neck and it, too, was warm. I knew at that moment, that when they called me in the car, that they were trying to notify me she had passed away.

 

I sat with her for about 20 minutes, gathered up her belongings, and headed how via the back roads of Keystone.  I don't know how I made it home.

 

And so, here I am today, totally alone.  Out in the country with just a few neighbors.  Unable to go anywhere because of the coronavirus.  And dealing with the death of the woman I vowed to care for for the rest of her life.

 

My heart is broken and I move like a zombie through the hours of each day, stuck in the house that was for a few months our coronavirus prison.  I keep thinking I'll hear her voice or see her coming through the door.  But isolation is my sentence.  How long must we suffer?

 

 

Written with care and emotion,

I am ...


(Email written Aug. 19, 2020, to a local newspaper reporter wanting stories about COVID-19 isolation.)



Friday, March 20, 2020

Good Morning, Vietnam!

I certainly wasn't happy about getting orders to Vietnam.  Aware that a high percentage of GIs who were drafted were put on the front lines, I tried to reduce my risk and limit my exposure.  After much thought, my college roommate and I both enlisted at the same time in the U.S. Navy Reserve.

Image result for vietnam hat emojiAfter flunking out of two colleges, I was afraid of losing my military service deferment.  The war was dragging on, with no end in sight.  The newspapers were filled with stories of U.S. firebases being overrun by Viet Cong.  I was no hero and not ready to give my life up for some cause I didn't fully understand and appreciate.

What I could appreciate was the fact that I came from a nautical family.  On my father's side, men had gone down to the sea in ships for generations.  Dad was, in fact, a Danish sea captain -- with permanent captain's licenses from Denmark and Panama.  Also, I was a card-carrying member of the U.S. Merchant Marine, having shipped out on the S.S. Bradford Island sailing coastwise on April 28, 1966.  I grew up on the Tampa waterfront and was comfortable around ships.  What could be more natural?

I figured I was insulated from the war zone.  I didn't think about the massive warships we had off the coast of Vietnam, pounding away with 16-inch guns, or the "brown-water Navy" comprised of river patrol boats (PBRs) and various kinds of landing craft.  No, I was focused on getting that "Mediterranean Cruise."  Ha!  What a joke.  And, what a fool I was.

First off, after graduating from a two-year "junior" college, I returned to my hometown and re-entered the university as a junior-level student.  But I started back to school at the same time I committed to six years of military service.  The Reserve obligation was actually only two years of  "active duty."  You attended meetings once a month for the first year (which would take me through my junior year in college), then you reported for active duty.  After that, you were supposed to do two more years of monthly meetings followed by one year of no-drill/no pay.

I was "on board" with this arrangement, as you might say.  Regular Navy, as well as other military branches, required a four-year stint -- all active duty.  If I got that "Med Cruise" like I wanted, it was going to be a sweet deal.

July 1, 1968, was my date of enlistment.  I had to attend "boot camp" for two weeks in late August of that year.  I had 12 months to get my junior year of college done and I buckled down -- sort of.  There were the occasional late nights out in the "hippie" bars near the university.  Things were looking up and I was beginning to think I had made some smart decisions.

One day, while living at home with my parents and going to school, I went outside to the mailbox.  When I came inside and opened a fancy-looking envelope (like the kind you get with an invitation in it), I started to laugh hysterically.  My startled mother became alarmed and asked me why I was laughing.  "I just made the Dean's List," I said, incredulously.

You see, I had never expected to become a decent student, much less make the Dean's List.  My track record was horrible and all I wanted to do was make sure I wouldn't flunk out again and get drafted into the Army or Marines.  Reading the card, at that moment I seriously doubted I had made any smart decisions.

I finished my junior year -- and the next letter I got was from Uncle Sam, saying "C'mon on.  Time to go."  I reported for active duty in Charleston, SC for active duty on July 10, 1969.

I remember Charleston was a sweatbox.  Hot, humid and lots of thunderstorms -- much like Tampa.  Each day we'd get up, report for some ridiculous work detail to kill time and go down to look at the bulletin board to see if our orders had come in.   Day after day, sailors were getting orders to PBRs!  That's right, river patrol boats deep in the interior of Vietnam.  Now, this was something I had not planned for.  A week passed and then there were a few days when the orders slowed down.  Nothing was happening.  SOMETHING was happening.

Then came the morning when I, with a group of anxious sailors, jockeyed for position to see the board.  There, at long last, was my name.  Next to it was the place where I was supposed to report for duty.  It said "Danang, RVN."  I must have reread it five times.  My heart must have sunk.  Later, after returning home, I would joke with friends that the Navy had apparently begun naming ships after cities in Vietnam because I couldn't believe I was going to Vietnam and not some ship.

When you get sent to Vietnam, you first get some special training.  They send you to "Counter-Insurgency School."  The point is to train you for if and when you get captured.  Because the Navy felt sorry for me -- you know, I may never come back -- they gave me three weeks of leave to be with my family before reporting on August 26, 1969, to Little Creek, VA -- a Marine base.  There the Marines ran us ragged, trying to harden what looked like Pillsbury Doughboys.  We learned how to shoot M-16s, M-79 grenade launchers, M-60 machine guns and 50-cal. machine guns.  And we got physically fit.

The Navy must have really felt sorry for me because they gave me another week's leave for a final goodbye.  I said farewell to my friends and parents.  It wasn't tearful, I don't think.  I can't imagine what my mother must have felt.  I recall standing in the living room, dressed in my crisp Navy whites.  My mom took my picture.  I smiled.  I went to the airport.

In those days, the military chartered civilian passenger jets to move their troops around the country and in and out of Vietnam.  My Tampa flight landed in L.A. where I hopped a chopper for Norton Air Force Base in San Bernardino.  I climbed aboard an American Airlines 747, bound first for Hawaii, then Guam, and finally Danang.

The flight was long and grueling.  I remember the stewardesses were nice, probably feeling sorry for us.

On touchdown October 3, 1969, I couldn't see much.  We walked down the plane's stairs into a bright, sunny day.  It was beautiful.  There wasn't much to look at.  The terminal was an open-air wooden structure built by the Americans for troop movement.  I must have been in a fog, but I somehow got my seabag and followed directions with a bunch of other GIs.

I walked up a ramp into what almost looked like a cattle trailer, painted Navy grey.  Pulled by a semi-tractor, we proceeded to wind our way through the crowded streets of Danang.  There were seats all along the edge of the trailer, with hand-holds much like subway trains.  The door was still open on the side, and I could see the scenery moving by in an almost dream-like stream.

In traffic, we came to a stop.  I could see out the side door.  Just a few feet away there was a young Vietnamese girl, wearing the traditional straw hat.  Wow!  I was really here.  These people were beautiful.  I was sure they were incredibly grateful for another truckload of soldiers, all willing to fight and die for Vietnam's freedom.

"Hey, Baby-san," yelled one GI from the cattle car.  "Boom-boom?"

Little did I understand the slang, the lingo, the obscenities that GIs would use to address the locals.  Nor could I believe how adept the little girl, working tirelessly in her garden beside the road, was with spoken English.

"Fuck you, GI," she yelled.  Besides being fluent in English cursing, so too was she adept at finger gestures.

Good Morning, Vietnam!  My life was about to change -- forever.




Sunday, April 8, 2018

The Brutal End

I was moved to tears.

I had been driving the sidestreets somewhat off the highway, trying to get a decent photograph of a tattered and torn American flag, flying ever so proudly in the wind -- despite its deplorable condition. 

My search led me to a feeling much deeper than the anger I felt upon seeing the stately symbol.  I felt the deepest sorrow.  And I felt helpless ...

What I saw was something I never expected to see, and I only glanced it for a second.  The flock of vultures had surrounded what I believed to be the carcass of an animal that hadn't made it across the street.  It's an area of development -- tens of thousands of new houses and commercial development along the fringes.

The poor animals who had formerly called the placid pastures and cypress swamps their homes were being displaced at a furious pace.

I was struck by the thought that it was the inevitable final chapter -- where one animal must be sacrificed so that others will continue to thrive.  But I cried out loud when I came abreast of the dark feast.  The vultures were greedily picking apart the body.

But for a brief second -- my heart stopped -- when I saw the raccoon raise its head, to itself witness its own end.  How terrific, horrible.  I could feel their beaks slicing through my heart.

I wanted to stop the car.  Get out.  Put it out of its misery.

But I did not.

Stunned, I drove ahead, turned the corner and drew a deep breath.

I'm so sorry, my friend.  May you find peace tonight.  I cannot unsee his brutal end, and what it may portend.

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Shouldn't "Sexual Harassment" Be About Sex?

I find myself confused these days because of all the allegations in the news of sexual harassment.  I'm almost afraid to express my opinion on the subject.

It's no secret that a man has to walk a fine line in the workplace.  This has been the case for a couple decades, at least.

With fondness, I remember when a woman in the office -- right in the middle of the workplace -- pulled her blouse up to her armpits for me.  To say I was shocked is an understatement.  As I whipped my head around to see if anyone had been watching, I realized that apparently she had already done so.  I guess, with the advent of cubicles, people could easily be shielded from much of what goes on in the office.

And there was the time at the tennis courts when, as I climbed the stairs to the pro's office, a lady player said to me, "Nice legs."  I was pleasantly surprised.  But, really, I thought nothing of it.  Now that I think about it, she may have been eyeing a different part of my anatomy.  Tennis shorts were, well, short back then.  And, I guess some would say, quite revealing.

Harassment?  I don't think so.  There was no touching, true.  But sexually charged for sure.

But there was also the time, now so very vague, when I must have complimented a female office worker on her appearance.  I am certain I said nothing untoward.  Perhaps a word about a nice dress or her looking particularly nice that day.  It wasn't until hours later that I realized I had made a grave mistake, and that my comments could be misinterpreted as "suggestive" or even "harassment."  I anguished over what I had done and apologized to her in private the next day.

I get what groping is.  I am quite sure it is the inappropriate and often rough and forceful handling of another's sexual anatomy.  To be specific, I believe that anatomy to be breasts and crotch area for women.  I had never had to think about how that might apply to men, but I would assume that also meant the crotch area.

Here's the thing.  The genitals and female breasts are "sexual organs," aren't they?  I mean, they do have erectile tissue.  They do respond to sexual stimulation.  What I'm having trouble with is the butt.  The buttocks.  One's ass.

I was reminded that one's appreciation for various parts of the body is a strictly personal thing.  Certain segments of the population have an affinity for the posterior.  (I'm having disturbing flashes of Kim Kardashian, who's stern requires emergency flashers.)

I can see how "cupping" or "grabbing" anyone's butt would be harassment.  Really I do.  But the butt is not some sexual appendage -- no matter how much today's popular culture would make it out to be.  In point:  "Baby's got back."  "Shake your booty."  However, I have a tendency to think that one's behind has become de-sexualized.  Just go to the beach.  Men and women both bare their derriere without a thought.  If it's out there for all the world to see, how is it any different than a shoulder, an elbow or knee?  You can "sexualize" these appendages if you want.  But I would not.

I am appalled by the number of females coming forward and complaining that men have "touched" their butt.  Hey, lady.  It's your butt.  Nothing more, nothing less.  The touch may or may not have been inappropriate, yeah.  But a touch is not harassment.  I hate to see someone's life shattered because of an "innocent" touch.  If, however, the intent was to push on, to "test the waters" or -- worst of all -- begin applying leverage to gain sexual favors, I have a big problem with that.

Now, I'm in no way advocating that all of a sudden it become socially acceptable to touch another person's ass.  Football and other sports butt-patting aside, it's just an area of the human body that is normally kept out of sight and rightfully ascribed to as "private parts."  But it does not fall into the category of "sexual."  It is neither used for procreation nor is it a specialized organ for the nourishment of an infant.  In terms of output, when compared to the genitals or breasts, the buttocks is pretty disgusting.

So, I'd like to see "sexualization" of the butt stopped.  And maybe we can go back to when I was a kid and one's ass was nothing more than the butt of a joke.

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Never Miss An Opportunity To Meet Someone New

Today I spied someone anchored off the edge of the property, just over on the neighbor's side. They fished for at least an hour, which was unusual, because most lake fishermen drift by the lakefront quietly, tossing their lines into the lake grass.  But this person anchored and was casting with a small rod out toward the center of the lake.  I was curious and walked down to meet Ralph, a black man, who was catching brim.  Most were too small and he was throwing them back.  But every cast brought back a fish, almost immediately.  

Ralph, who was acquainted with a lakefront property owner on the other side of the lake, was obviously having a good time.  He said he was catching fish to feed the homeless.  I’m going to assume that did not include him, since he had a nice aluminum john-boat with a small, electric kicker on the back.  We talked for a few minutes, about his technique, his bait (red worms), and our preferences for salt- vs. freshwater fishing.  I grew up in South Tampa, off the Bay, and knew only about dropping a line in water that was salt.  Now, living on a lake north of Tampa, I wish I knew more about freshwater fishing.  

I shared with him Beth’s story about releasing a big freshwater catfish in the lake. Interestingly, Ralph said he had never caught a catfish in this lake.  Apparently he fishes the lake often, although I’ve not seen him -- but I may have.  He wears a floppy hat with a cover over the back of his neck.  I have a vague feeling that I’ve seen him out on the lake.  We exchanged first names and Ralph offered to take me out on the lake any time I should see him. In parting, he offered to do any odd jobs around the house, saying he wasn’t afraid to do some hard work.  

I’m glad I took the time to walk down to the lakefront and meet Ralph.  You never know what opportunities you may miss to connect with others if you stay holed up, never opening yourself up to new experiences.  

Just like the other day -- when I walked up to the road-front to get the mail.  There, again, was someone I had only briefly talked to, walking his big, old Great Dane.  We had a great conversation about power outages and … Vietnam.  Turns out we were both there -- he just ahead of me, and during some of the worst fighting.  He’s a retired Master Chief in the Navy, and as a result of our newfound friendship, he offered to loan us his very cool generator the next time our power goes out and he’s not needing it.  

Sometimes I just love being an extrovert, although it’s at times painful.  But what I learned long ago as a newspaper reporter was that everyone IS interesting, has a story to tell, and loves to talk about themselves (me included, as you might notice.)

Monday, April 24, 2017

The Spider In The Nightlight

My friend appears to be doing well.

He lives inside the clear shade of the bathroom nightlight.  I think I named him Ralphie.  But that's because I name all my bugs "Ralphie."  I guess he's a guy, but I'm not sure.  Goes with the name.

I'm not sure how long ago it was when I first realized I always was accompanied when I used the bathroom.  I first noticed small, dark "droppings" on the countertop next to the wall.  They had to be bugs -- dead bugs -- or bug poop.  They would appear, even after I swept them up, directly below an outlet where the LED nightlight is plugged in.  It's one of those with the sensor that switches on at dusk.

Ralphie has hit on something good.  His cool-bulb nightlight guarantees bugs will come around at night.  And there are no shortage of bugs, apparently.  We live in the country and even the new, hurricane-proof windows have gaps around the screens.

At first I didn't think anything was alive inside the shade.  But there were, as I learned later, carcasses in there, some hung up in Raphie's little web.  I was not pleased with the bits of black inside the light, so I unplugged it and looked inside.

Nothing moved.

I was going to dump it -- clean it out with a wet wipe.  But, I thought, what if there were a live spider in there?  I honestly can cohabitate with a small spider -- as long as they stick to their territory.  I have learned this attitude from Beth, who convinced me some time ago to let a rather large garden spider run loose in the bathroom.  So if he were alive, I'd just let him harvest what stray flying insects should wind up in the web.

So, to be sure, I poked the butt-end of a toothbrush in there.  Immediately there was a furious amount of activity inside the shade.  Ralphie virtually vibrated back and forth, his little body whipping to and fro, up and down, sideways.  He was obviously agitated -- but he did not run away.  No.  Not Ralphie.  He froze.  All movement stopped.  I poked again and the agitation began again.  He is so small you can hardly distinguish him from all the little black carcasses.  But he was the only spot moving.

And still he stayed.

Someone -- or something this dedicated to protecting their franchise should not be removed.  Ralphie showed a real determination to stay where he was at any cost.  And so Ralphie the nightlight spider remains on the wall, behind his little clear-plastic enclosure, not far from my ear when I look in the mirror.

When I remember that he's there, I look over and see him (and clean up his mess).  But I'm happy that he gets to live on and enjoy his decision to be the spider in the nightlight.

Update: 6/15/17  I'm sad to report that Ralphie is with me no longer.  Hopefully, he moved on to more fertile grounds.  Realistically, he had a long and prosperous life.  Now I often glance at the empty nightlight and think fondly of my friend.